Once upon a time, in January of this year, I was a fairly reliable correspondent. If you sent me an email or text, I’d respond quickly. I checked my voicemail (which I hate, but that’s for another post) and called people back. Over the last few months, I have become a terrible correspondent.
Partially, I’ve been focusing on myself to a degree that I haven’t in the past. Also, I’ve found interactions draining. I’m doing much better mentally than I was earlier this year, but that’s also because I’ve stopped running myself ragged trying to be a people-pleaser. I’ve also given up being relentlessly upbeat when I don’t feel that way. My energy is different now.
I feel a strange mix of guilt and contentment with this situation. It’s something that I’m still working through. A good topic for therapy.
Sounds like you are doing you. Good for you, great for others.
I didn’t write these words, but I wish I had.
“But it’s all right now, I learned my lesson well
You see, ya can’t please everyone, so ya got to please yourself.”
“If you gotta play at garden parties, I wish you a lotta luck
But if memories were all I sang, I rather drive a truck.”
Take care of yourself first and foremost. As always, I enjoy reading your posts.