The same, but different

A quantum mechanics principle provides a way to explain the depression I’m feeling from social distancing and quarantine.

Recovery update: The space between

Entering the homestretch of my medication taper and trying to discern what is frustration from social distancing and quarantine and what are symptoms of depression. There’s very little difference.

Lockdown

Shelter-in-place is reminding me of my early days as a new parent. Old ways of keeping score and measuring success don’t work anymore. It’s time for a change.

Recovery update: And then there was one

After four years, I’m finally off Prozac. Now, there’s just one antidepressant left on the menu.

So tired I can’t sleep

Withdrawal from antidepressants can cause sleep disturbances and insomnia. It isn’t fun.

So much to say

I’m experiencing all the feels. It’s a lot to handle all at once.

Recovery update: Drop and give me 20(mg)

Things are moving in the right direction. Still, the energy and effort that goes into transitioning off of psychiatric drugs is enormous and invisible.

The worst kind of bored

Boredom is usually a sign that I’m getting better after being physically unwell. It’s not working like that for me right now. It’s demoralizing.

Living large(r)

Antidepressants and body weight have a complex and poorly understood relationship. As I taper off my medication, I’m coming to terms with how my fluctuating weight affects my mental health.

Surge protectors exist for a reason

Tapering off of medication means that I’m experiencing emotion in a way I haven’t in a long time. It’s bumpy. I wish there was some kind of thing I could just plug in to smooth it out. Spoiler alert: It isn’t that simple.