Through a mirror darkly

Dr. Ruth J. Simmons, noted leader in higher education and French literature scholar, gave an excellent talk at Rice University yesterday. It’s got me thinking about the “in camera” inspection I’m doing of myself.

Let’s talk about therapy

There are many misconceptions about psychiatry and psychoanalysis. Here’s a bit about my experience with therapy.

Depression as a signal

I’m coming to terms with the reality that my depression is not the result of brain chemistry alone.

The worst kind of bored

Boredom is usually a sign that I’m getting better after being physically unwell. It’s not working like that for me right now. It’s demoralizing.

Back in the Bayou City

I’m home and enjoying being home. It’s a good feeling.

Surge protectors exist for a reason

Tapering off of medication means that I’m experiencing emotion in a way I haven’t in a long time. It’s bumpy. I wish there was some kind of thing I could just plug in to smooth it out. Spoiler alert: It isn’t that simple.

What now?

The conference gave me something to work towards and something to look forward to. It also gave me the perfect distraction.

I did a (15K) thing!

It was an ugly race, but it felt good to finish strong. It also made me consider the difference between doing my best and doing the best I know how.

Thoughts on courage

What does it mean to be courageous? Can I have courage and still be scared?

Recovery update: Houston, we have a plan

Another update on my recovery. My new psychiatrist is supportive of my mental health goals and we are going to take a fresh look at my medication. I’m feeling optimistic.