My regular job doesn’t allow me time to sit and think. I move from one project and deadline to the next at a frenetic pace. There are some advantages to operating at this relentless tempo. Time passes quickly and adrenaline delivers quite a rush. At the same time, there’s no opportunity to let ideas percolate or feelings soak.
With my doctoral comprehensive exams and the conference now behind me, all I have is time. Instead of relief though, I feel lost. Having exams and a presentation to prepare for allowed me to relegate my recovery and future to the far recesses of my mind. Those thoughts are now front and center. As the saying goes, denial is not a river in Egypt. At the moment, my only answer is to sit with the discomfort and let it soak in.