Boredom is usually a sign that I’m getting better after being physically unwell. It’s not working like that for me right now. It’s demoralizing.
Year: 2020
Living large(r)
Antidepressants and body weight have a complex and poorly understood relationship. As I taper off my medication, I’m coming to terms with how my fluctuating weight affects my mental health.
Back in the Bayou City
I’m home and enjoying being home. It’s a good feeling.
Forward to the past
Crossing the International Date Line offers an opportunity for time travel without a DeLorean.
My place isn’t my place
I had this idea that being back in my favorite place on the planet would, somehow, fix me. It didn’t and it can’t, because I’m not actually broken.
Asynchronicity
I’m living in this odd space between feeling well and balanced and feeling anxious and fractured.
Surge protectors exist for a reason
Tapering off of medication means that I’m experiencing emotion in a way I haven’t in a long time. It’s bumpy. I wish there was some kind of thing I could just plug in to smooth it out. Spoiler alert: It isn’t that simple.
What now?
The conference gave me something to work towards and something to look forward to. It also gave me the perfect distraction.
The BEST day
My presentation went as well as it could have gone. Afterwards, a few people even came up to talk to me about it. They asked me more about my work. It made me feel like what I am doing matters.
Not that kind of doctor
A solid run this morning has me feeling reflective and ready for the conference to begin.
Seriously, Jerk Brain?! 