Asynchronicity

Out of sync might be the best description of my current state. I’m experiencing a broader range of emotions, but they’re unfamiliar, like seeing a colleague from two jobs ago crossing the street. There’s recognition, but it takes a moment to place the face in context and, by the time I do, they’re far enough past that it no longer matters. I experience an emotion, but can’t immediately name it. It’s fuzzy and indistinct. Often, I only realize how I feel after the feeling has passed. It makes interactions with others challenging.

I’m out of step with those around me, playing catch up to the evolving mood. Bit by bit, as I reacquaint myself with my feelings, the disconnect resolves and feelings begin to make more sense. I wish there was some way to make the process faster and easier.